17 MEI 2011 – I’m fall down to the ground. I need a hand that can help me to stand up again but there is no one by my side. I need someone that can make me smile, make me laugh again, show me the happiness. But there is no one can make me alive again. I need a new breath, new soul that can bring me back to life like I am use to be but I’m fall into a deep hole inside hell. A heart without soul. Why should I feel this way ? I hate this feeling. Can’t someone give me a new hope ? A light to see the happiness ? Why can’t there be a part of me ? If i can choose my own life, i will choose to be a damn guy that don’t have any good feeling inside. It’s a Karma ? But why its happened to me ? Why not someone else ? There is a lot of people in this fucking world but why this fucking bad life goes to me ? Why not others ? It’s ZERO. I want to be the number one. I want to be a cooky ones. Things always happened different from what is in my mind. What’s my name ? My name is Shukur but what the meaning ? Nothing. Full of sadness, a life without hope. I want to be Shou again. A guy with big mouth and do not afraid of anything in this world. Where is he ? Dying ? Can u get him back to life again Shukur ? You’re apart of him, just u. So take it. Bring Shou to life again, show him what’s the meaning of Shou. That’s a guy with a strong spirit, intelectual and shining among all the people around him. Full of humor , full of crazy talk. Crazy mind like a guy without a brain. Hey, Shou only got u. So please bring him to life again. Blow a new soul to this shit guy. With a love. *This is Shukur, not Shou.
20 MARCH 2011 - Maybe u don’t know but 98% that i always contact is u. 2% more goes to my friends, more to call, diorang macam i juga tak berduit. So kenalah call. But if i lose u i just got 2% accompany. Time tu aku mati. Tapi i rasa apa yang u beritahu i betul lah Foo. I text u je cerita pasal i mati, mesti bosankan. Macam kau angel je. Hahaha. Actually for me yeah, you’re my angel. Bodoh dulu pun u ingat i save number u apa ? Angel kut. Kau ni lain macam. Aku suka kau. Aku keluar pun dengar kote je sekarang, mana nak jumpa pepek dah. Kau selalu hidupkan aku kan ? Now kau kena bagi aku hidupkan kau pulak. Kau tak suka, aku peduli apa. I just return the favour. Alah kau ni, aku mati pun kau boleh hidupkan takkan kau tak boleh hidup balik kut ? Hmm. Idk what should i say, but if u always with me when i die i will be with u also. Eventhough u macam meluatkan ? Haha. Pergi mam lah kau. U nak alonekan ? Okay go for it. Aku pun sama jugak.
Shou : I meet your heart once in my life right ? So i won’t throw that heart away out of my life okay. Kau pun. Kalau mati kau kena bagitahu aku sebab aku Shou. Haha. I jampi-jampi lah u nanti. So boleh hidup balik.
Shou : Foo. imy. Can you promise me something ?
Foo : What ?Shou : Nanti kalau kita dah berkerjaya, kita lepak sama-sama. I nak pijak muka u. HAHA
Foo : Lah ingatkan apa tadi. Baru nak nangis. HAHA
Shou : Tak jadi nak romantik, nanti kau menangis. Aku nak kau happy and senyum je.
Foo : HAHA. Yela nanti dah berkerjaya kita lepak. Jangankan pijak, langgar i pakai kereta pun tak apa.
Shou : Btw, you know what ? I'm listening your favourite song until today :)
Foo : What song ? HAHA
Shou : The Kids From Yesterday. HAHAHA
Foo : HAHA. Tak penat ke telinga u dengar lagu tu banyak kali ?
Shou : Nak buat macam mana, lagu ni je yang boleh buat i senyum.
*Yeah. This is Shou not Shukur.
I love you my ex-boyfie, my Bullshit friend on the Earth. SHOU. Aku tahu kau boleh hidup balik. Bring back Shou, we don’t need Shukur. Bodoh kau ni Shou, pandai-pandailah hidup balik. Carik duit banyak-banyak lepas tu pergi mabuk-mabuk. Mabuk Coke pun tak apa. Memang betul sometimes susah untuk kita tinggalkan orang yang selalu ada untuk kita, tapi kita kena cuba. Okay ?
“When there was a relationship once, the chemistry just remain there even the love fade away.” –Date-gay.
